My Bucket list

Interestingly enough I have never seen The Bucket List, and for some reason I don't really want to. I have this nagging suspicion that I will not like the ending...meh...C'est la vie..

I'm a young person... and sometimes I feel like my life is already over. I've graduated college and unlike others I was lucky enough enough to become employed before the ink dried on my diploma. So is that it?

 I have a job, and I will have an apartment next year when it becomes available.....but is that how the rest of my life goes? A normal day to day experience? Channeling "Working 9-5" as we speak.

I've always been a dreamer. That sounds so cliche and corny and yet it's true.I dream of traveling and seeing new places and becoming a new person in an instant My mind is full all the time of things that could happen in a instant and it depends on what I am doing. If i'm standing in front of a person I catch myself envisioning every single scenario that could happen If I do something. Like what if right now I'm a spy meeting a contact...or what if the person in front of me is the one i'm going to spend the rest of my life with...I guess, in truth, that's what this meaningless ramble comes down to.

Will I be alone forever?
As a hopeless romantic...this sounds terrifying. I have many people in my life who love me and who i love unconditionally, but where is that someone who loves me unconditionally...and without reason? Am i searching too hard? All of those stupid romantic quotes that say If i keep looking I will never find someone and that they are standing right in front of me.

That went a little off topic. I apologize

REEEEELING IT BACK IN......

So going back to the I'm a dreamer part. I've made multiple promises to myself that  I will do these once in a lifetime things, sometime in my one life time.

I'm not good at blogging. I get these ridiculous notions in my head at 3:13 in the morning that what i have to say will inspire others.. i know i'm not that cool.

but what  i need to do for myself is keep this list updated. My own personal bucket list of things i want to do and why before I die. And honestly try to complete them.

This isnt a Julia Child thing. I'm not going to complete this in a year..but I'm going to try. Im going to try and add to my Bucket List... but also check things off..

Stick with me.

K